•”CADE ROUA”•

 

•NEKRO-DUALIS•GHOULIS+

“To Ascend in Harmony, 

one must descend in Chaos”  

<Mar’Vir’Orel>

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In the Hour of the False Light,

When Inner Bliss becomes Chaos Mess

I met My Shadow of the Past:

With Hollow Eyes!

It was leering like a Ghoul

No remorse in his Smile

Only the Glee of causing Pain!

In Vain: To Cry out to Sanity or Kindness!

Flashes of Hits:

on my face pounding,

Punches thrown across my Chest and Waist…

SO WILD HIS GAZE,

SO MANIC HIS LAUGHTER!

How can one hold so much Hate for causing Pain?

Words spoken with Disdain and Blame thrown - 

For his pity Life -

 I was to Blame?!

I fell on my Knees,

His Weight crushing Me.

His Arms across My Neck,

My Voice Choking:

BEGGING HIM TO STOP!

Not to Lose to his Rage,

To a Beast Insane - with Flame Daemonic!

He was too far Gone…

The Doom of Crime was on his Mind…

To Kill me in this Wilderness…

Something gave me Strength and Power,

When I was about to lose Awareness…

Everything began to Super-slow its motions:

My ripped White Shirt in his Clutches

My Backpack smaged from my Shoulders,

Drops of Blood dripping on the pavement warm…My Breath began to Stop…

He thought he had me now,

All Alone, no one to Care

The Smell of Death was in the Air

Even if the Sun shone so Bright and Vivid.

At the End of all Hope -The Spark Unknown filled my Essence -

The Gift to outrun my Past was Granted!

The Speed of Light overcame 

this Shadow of Eternal Darkness!

The Ghoul stumbled,

chasing me like Satan!

But he was Slow…

Too Slow for my Light-footed Speed!

My Heart pumping like a Ray of Cosmic Rush,

My Breath filling my Body with Pure Light

I run so fast!

I run so easy! 

The Spark of Life has been Awoken -

And the Force of Grace -

gave Boost to my Feet!

The Ghoul was behind,

ever farther away…

Defeated by his own Heavy-Matter Energy!

I run so Free,

with so much Glee!

To turn back and claim Revenge?!

Now, that My Trio Forces are United!!!

For a Moment - this Thought was Sweet:

To assert My Vengence-Wrath of My Will!

But then,

I let him Go!

This Wormy Creature - 

that lost all the Skills to be a Human…

I will not fuel his Wheel of Karma,

No no…

HE WILL CHOKE ON HIS OWN DOINGS -

Because the Earth is so Full of Bodies -

of this so called ‘Warlords’! 

- Now they Serve the Humus of my Feet!

When I still walk Above,

And they - 

Laying still under my every Step!

THIS IS THE PRICE YOU PAY FOR HEAVY MATTER - 

WILL CRUSH YOU UNDER YOUR OWN LOAD!

I thank my Fate and My Protectors

To Witness Chaos and Bliss so Real,

To Partake in Legacy of both Forces

and to Fuse with Them -

In Understanding!

Don’t seek Punishment for Evil Deeds

Only seek to Preserve your Life

and Those beloved to you!

All the rest - 

is just a Test.

EVILNESS WILL CRACK ITS OWN SKULL

UNDER WEIGHT OF GUILT AND SHAME AND PAIN! 

NOW I DANCE WITH SCARS OF HONOR

AND MY SMILE IS SO PRISTINE!

 This Shadow of the Past wanted to be my Doom…

But little did he know…

His Bloody Rage - 

was the Way of Dual Forces:

To Entwine and to Bestow upon Me:

THE MAGICK GIFT OF WHOLE-DUO-Ness! 

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(+++PAX+++LEX+++LUX+++)

+TAMPLIER•NOVIS•VAMPUS+

+++LYRICUM•ARS•POETICI+++

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I BROKE THE SEAL OF HOLYNESS

TO BECOME UNHOLY CREATURE

BUT EVEN IN THIS DAMNED LIFE

I STILL CAN SPREAD THE HOLY SCRIPTURE!

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I DON’T SEEK REST OR PEACE ETERNAL

MY WORK IS LONG, AS LONG -

THE BREATH IN ME IS BREATHING!

SACRED OPUS IS EVER SEARCHING -

EVEN IF DEATH CLAIMED MY BODY,

MY SOUL IS STILL CRAVING -

FOR THE LIGHT OF PEACE!

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TEMPUS FUGIT - FATUM LUCIT,

MORTUS VITA - SEMPER VERBER,

NOVUS TEMPLUM - ILLUMINATI

ET TEMPLARIS - AD LUX EXALTUS!

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NIGHT IS DARK AND SO OCCULTIC

FOR THE SOUL LOST IN DARKNESS,

MY VAMPIC SPIRIT CAN SEE THE LIGHT

EVEN IF I DROWN IN CRIMSON BLOOD!

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I HOLD THE SIGIL OF MY ORDER

BEYOND MY SHAME - 

IS SACRED CODEX!

VAMPY BEAST - 

WITH SPARK OF HONOR

AND LEGACY -

BEYOND MY GRAVE!

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WE ALL MUST FIGHT 

THE HOLY BATTLE,

WITH THE FLAG AND CURSED DAGGER!

EVEN A BEAST -CAN REACH HIS BEST,

IF HIS FOCUS IS SHARP

WITH INSTINCT CUNNING!

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SANCTUS BELLUM IN VIRTUTIS

TAMPLIERI SAENECTUTEM!

AVE MAGIS VAMPI CLANUS

IN DIEBUS LEXIS MUNDIS!

FIAT PAX IN ANIMUS

ET IN VITAE - ASIMUS!

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EVERY DAY I RISE WITH POWER

FROM THE BLOOD OF VAMPIRE

TO REACH THE GATES OF HELL

AND TRANSFORM DAEMONIC FIRE

INTO HOLY FLAME OF BURNING PYRE!

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THE LIGHT IS DYING

THE CHAOS - GROWING,

WORLD IS SHAKING

THE OCEANS - BOILING,

SKY IS FALLING

AND HEAVEN - WAKING! 

THE DRUMS ARE LOUD

THE DEATH - GROWLS!

THE REIGN OF NIGHT 

AND MIGHT OF POWER!

IT IS COMING…

IT IS COMING!

THE DOOM OF DAYS -

ETERNAL BATTLE!

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(+Legatus•Violykanus•ad•Tampliernoi•

consecratum+)

+NECROLOGYA-MORPHIS+

I AM DEAD

AND SO ARE YOU…

DIED, 

TO RISE AGAIN IN SPLENDOR!

YES - dead-out, 

to be Birth-outed again! 

Otherwise, 

how can Growing be?

Constant dying and Constant Birthing…

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You seek me without Road-Map or Clue

As well as me - chasing you Blindfolded…

This Game of Tears and Distance-Counting

We Hate and Love like Psycho-donistic Couple! 

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The Pressure is so Hard and Sharp like Razor

When we feel each other without Touching…

One Moment is Eternal Bliss with you

Can easily turn in Torturous Anguish Fire

With Evergrowing Passion of Sensual Desire…

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I like the Bet,

The Stakes are ever Higher

We don’t Stop to Hide

the Scars with Smile! 

We reach New Shore

with every Storm,

With Risk to Drown 

More and more…

We don’t Quit,

not Now, not Ever…

Too far GONE?!

NO, NOT AT ALL! 

WE JUST PLAY THE CARDS WE HOLD

TO COMPLETE THE HOLY SET 

YOU MUST BE BOLD! 

☠️I AM GONE☠️

I AM GONE,

Like a Swift Wind 

Beyond this Realm - 

so Cold and Empty…

I run Daily - chasing the Wind of Fate, 

so late…

The Time is always - in the Now!

The Past is always - in the Now! 

But, WHERE IS NOW?! 

Somewhere else…

FAR AWAY…

Like in all the Tales:

They all Start the same

And End the same

almost…

What makes all the difference:

“Is the Middle Part” - 

the Drive! 

The Hero’s Deeds!

Action! 

Love! 

And Fight with Noble Flare! 

Maybe Sometimes…

The Best Action and Choise:

IS NONE!

Yes, 

NO Deed, NO Fight, NO Try…

Just Stillness Alone,

In Silence and Darkness

All by Yourself, no one around…

Not because you are Alone

or you Feel to be Alone…

NO, NO! 

You want to be Alone - like Air!

An Element so Ancient

Inside of you is Craving - 

This Lust of Solo-living,

Dreaming…

Be GONE! 

Because I am…

Gone like Wind

before the Storm! 

All is coming to a New End…

To Prepare the Fresh Scene 

For the Hot-boiling Youth

with Verve so Vivid 

and so Lucid with Vitality! 

Let’s be gone,

Both of Us…

We played this game…

Now,

We both Deserve to Rest…

+ETERNAL☯️DARKLIGHT-

I AM THE DARKNESS!

BECAUSE YOU ARE THE LIGHT,

I AM THE CHAOS!

BECAUSE OF YOUR BALANCE,

I AM DUALITY!

BORN FROM THE UNITY,

DIVIDED IN HALF - 

I BECOME THE DARKNESS!

MERGING WITH LIGHT -

ONENESS COMPLETE!

ONCE WHOLE - I AM NEITHER LIGHT NOR DARK!

I AM THE DARKNESS…

I AM NOT SEARCHING FOR LIGHT!

I WIN OVER ONE

AND LOSING THE OTHER!

WHAT I AM,

CAN ONLY BE DEFINED

IN LIGHT OF THE OPPOSITE

OR NOTHING AT ALL…

BUT STILL…

MAYBE MY DARKNESS

IS THE TRUE LIGHT!

THAT YOU CAN NOT SEE…

LIKE THE BLACK MATTER -

SUCKING THE LIGHT…

TO GIVE YOU BACK -

ETERNAL DARKLIGHT!

+EXARCH•SOMNIUM•OCCULTUS+

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In the Moment of Sacred Silence

Like a Sample of Genesis Stasis

I sit in Darkness with a Candle

Mediator between opposing Forces! 

Around me: Holy Father Blackness

In front of me: Mother Grace the Light.

And Their Child: Me! - Perfect Balance

The Space inside, The Space outside:

Divided by my Awarness of Body-Mind! 

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The Snakes of Heat and Cold are moving

Constant Interplay of Tantric Dancing

Up and Down, Breath In - Breath Out!

Spirit Essence and Matter-Mind Extremes?!

EXCOMUNICATUS SACRILEGE OF HERESY!

There is no Division! 

They are One Whole! 

The Threshold of Nexus-binding:

Is Our Focus in Space and Time! 

The Split is only in the Mind

To set the Border to the Observer

And Gravity of Self-Persona. 

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The Broken Heart can rise with Love again,

Fallen Hero can be Reborn in Might and Grace,

Nothing wrong to fall in Darkness alone

If you seek your way back to Light again! 

Magnum Magick - is hidden in tiny Kindness

And bitter Shame can rise with Noble Pride!

As you drown in Pain and Sorrow endless

Stand your ground with your Dirty Banner!

You will see - in the midst of Chaos burning

The Brightest Glow of Harmony and Bliss!