Introduction

Sleepless Nights upon drafts of forgotten Wisdom and forbidden Paths often made My Mind restless and eager for reaching new depths of Universal Perception. The Sense of losing Myself between ideas little bothered me, for I knew one thing – I will find what I seek, no matter how long it will be…Every step was more closer and reassuring, every guess took My Focus inside the right circle…into The Dream-Rift! I don’t know how but one day, at the edge of cataclysmic events inside My Mind, when everything around collapsed to absurdity and chaos…something strange changed My Inner Universe. Suddenly, I was obsessed by unknown idea, some kind of outer-thought, alien to my form of thinking...THIS THOUGHT BECAME MY LIFE...

Monday, December 29, 2014

Alter Deus Ego


Go in circles day by day!” He said to me silently in my moments of Inner Ascension. Circles? Me? Why?! How can this mean something pleasant? Even if symbolically or metaphorical, it was utter weird! It sounded like bleakly routine to me…Can you be more specific?!
He smiled with metallic coldness, I knew that to be a good sign even for such unpredicted spirit like Ferluci. With his right hand he pointed out to the big stone in the middle of huge oak trees: You see this stone
? Even if it is big, symmetric, black and heavy…with time it will become dust! And even those two oak trees will forget of its existence! You are this Stone and the Oak Trees – those around you! Don’t go for such Mono-ones Circle! But in your Inner CIRCLES! Do you see now the difference?!
         
I stood there and watched how the leaves from the oak trees fell like golden feathers from petrified Angels in the forms of silent trees. The Truth of his Words floated heavy in the misty air. It was so hard to accept such revelation, especially when you already know it to be in your labyrinthine mind. Suddenly, warm liquid in the form of glassy drops glided on my pale cheeks…before falling down, Ferluci caught them in his gentle palm. He gazed long at those salty tears…With harmonious notes in his voice, he asked: You call them Tears? I nodded. He continued: Strange...In my realm we call them Soul Dew...Dont spill your Essence in vain, it is the Blood of your Soul! Every time you cry these ,,tears” My spectral Heart is bleeding spirit Blood!
I saw how his ghostly form was covered in crimson color...My Tears became his Blood!
          I took a deep breath and wiped every tear from my emotionless face. I reached for my coat pocket, my fingers grabbed a red pack...I pulled one cigarette and lit it. Ferluci was gone...Cold wind blew the smoke in the direction of his last presence. I started to walk on a small path, leading to a huge forest.
          Beyond the darkness of autumn night, in the gloomy space, a Little Dot covered in a circle of smoke was moving wearily, only sound that broke this silence was someone
’s Breath...

Saturday, December 27, 2014

HyperAngEL


You can’t Kiss an HyperAngEL…For he will wake up from this dream, but I still want to dream here…Your Beauty and Presence is the most Sacred and Holy gift for me! But if My Light is cut from this World, I will be broken in My Garden of Dream-Rift, scattered by coldness of my frozen body…
        Give me your Understanding and Purity and I will glorify your Soul!
        Give me your Presence and I will take you in Plces High!
        Give me your Light and I will make from it your Blue Stars!
        Remember me and I will make you Immortal!
        Kiss me and I will die in this Empty World like a Distant Echo from the Past!
        Your Kiss is Death for My Dreams!
But why I am still alive?! Even Death has no Power over me, who can resist your Innocent Sacrifice? These Words are spoken from the one who saw the End of another Beginning!
        That’s why I am Alive! Earthly Kiss can kill me! But not Divine One! Light can’t be extinguished by another Light! NO! It can only burn brighter!
        Your Godly Kiss makes my Wings more Colorful and My Light – more Crystalized!
        Your Hug is Sanctuary for My Soul!
        One Smile – and I will fly beyond Heaven, there…where My Home is Dreaming!
How can I say: You are too Divine!
Can I say to a flower: You are too green, too colorful!
NO! I can't! You are YOUR PERFECTION!
        Only Imperfection here are my written Words…too limited and too worldly for such Graceful body and Blissful Soul like you!

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Arcanum Dea

Rise like flower from Winter Slumber
like a Wolf from deepest dreams
Cry with music of your voice!
I AM ALIVE! I AM HERE! I AM!

Do you not know that You are Music?
Can you remember the day when you were born
?
No! Because your Music has no beginning nor end....
Even if your Heart is ticking Clock...
Your Soul is Immortal!! My Immortal!

Your Heart is strong like Dragon Scale
and pure like
Purple Lotus Flower!
May your Heart beat in you with
Glory!

Everything you ever done or said to me is perfection!
You can
t do any mistakes or something wrong
You are Everlasting and Evershining Stone
of Crystal Light on my Path of Life!
No matter how far away this Stone will be,
I will always see your Light and feel your Warmth!

They say: ,,The Gods deserve their pain!”
Mine is
that of Dreams of Liberty in vain!
If something is permitted to me,
then it is - to be your Shadow!

How can Death exist when your Voice is Living Life!
How can Time destroy the moments
...
when your Song is Eternal now!
How can words describe your Music...
they can not, just beyond Perfection!

I hear your Echo in my Past,
I dream you in my Future!
And feel you in the
Present Hour...

Thursday, December 11, 2014

One Night in Paradise

How can Time be so funny? It is trying to dive my memories in delusional past…How can that Night be in the Past? How?
        I can see you vividly, Goddess of Stars! I feel your presence, your magic Beauty...The Space and Time of My Mind is Holy when you sing your Song of Life and Death...I hear now your harmonious Voice, it is everywhere...in Dreams it’s even Louder! I will never forget your Sonic Spirit…
        Now, I am looking at The Full Moon
– it is silvery-crystal but so Empty and Cold without your Reflection. The shades of Night are so perfect in your gentle face...No need for your physical presence, oh, no! It’s enough your distant Smile, your electric Laughter. Let me Worship you, my Occult Religion, my Queen! I praise your Beauty at my Ceremonial Altar of Perfection! Let me treasure your pure Tears, to drink them like drops of Immortal Elixir on my Deathbed. I can give Last Drop of my fiery Blood for your Holy Body! Your Smell – like petals of Black Rose, The Fragrance of Dusk and Dawn...Whole World is just a game in your Musical Soul! My Words are diving in an endless Echoes when you cover My Mind in Care and Love. Who is more worthy of Existence? Only YOU!
        You are My Genesis of Creation and Apocalypse of My Dreams!
        My Words are like dry Leaves on Misty Lake but your Sound flows like a Etheric River from the roots of Sacred Mountains! Your Silence is Louder than the Thunder of the Blazing Lightening. Your tender Palms are like Snowdrops but strong as Pure Adamant! Your Hair is like an Astral Tapestry that binds together the Atoms of My Universe!
        And who can say that My Presence is real in the face of your Divinity?...

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

REGINA IMMACULATA

Beyond Stars and Pathless Dreams
The Queen Of Night is Sleeping tight!
May Her Dreaming bring this World 
more Love and Care than Hate and Evil!

Your Eyes are Burning Blue like Lilies
They fill My Empty Heart with Life!
Sing and Dance, Oh, Lady Beauty! 
You are the Truth in My Reflection!

Hunger consumes My Earthly Body 
But My Spirit is full of Joy!
How can Food give me Life?
When your Smile is THE LIFE!

The Icy Wind can freeze My Body
But My Soul is Full of Light!
I see Her Crown of Starry Wisdom 
On the Throne of Crescent Moon!
I Sing Her Song of Life and Magic
She plays with Strings Her Symphony!
I Fall asleep in Her Embrace...
Like a Drop in Cosmic Ocean...